This time 8 years ago I was having my ECT treatments… Come a long way.
The following months I have no memory of what so ever. But as the haze lifted I had to relearn how to read and write. I could not remember random things- from the way to get to college to how to hold a pencil. I remember one morning getting ready for school and just starring down at the zipper on my jacket and I couldn’t figure out how to work it. For the next year I would suddenly “come to” in random places with no idea how I got there.
I don’t really remember that year being that hard, mostly embarrassing. I remember people laughing at me at an internship I was doing cause I couldn’t figure out left from right. I remember getting so embarrassed at a restaurant cause I couldn’t form my order in a coherent sentence. I would get lost in the halls at school unable to figure out what room I was supposed to be in. Unable to understand the numbers on the door. At the gym a worker asked for my birthdate and I couldn’t remember it so I pulled out my ID and then couldn’t figure out how to read it. I remember her laughing at me.
And all that was nothing to what I was going through before the treatments.
So what was the hard part? I don’t know. You just take it one day at a time, step by step and then one day you look back on 8 years and can’t believe how far you’ve come.